My sister almost ran me over last night. I thought she was actually going to do it. Mum was heading off to see the boyfriend, again, and Ellie announced that she would follow Mum wherever she went and embarrass her. Mum employed my help to try and talk some sense into her, but she refused to talk to me and, when I stood in front of the car, drove it into me.

Boyfriend is only support through all this, but he has finals next week, then I have finals, then we're going on holiday separately and not seeing each other for two weeks. I'm desperately trying not to be a drain on him but I'm like the human leech at the moment, and there really is noone else I can talk to - noone else will listen. I just want to sit and be hugged and cry and cry and cry until I fall asleep, because I am exhausted.

I know I seriously need to revise but I can't help but feel I'll fail anyway, so why bother? All I can think about is cutting again. Now with boyfriend away, I'll have the time to myself. If I could just find a place which sells old-fashioned blades...